Friday, April 19, 2013

This Week: We Remember.

This week in history is one of a lot of pain for many people.

April 16, 2007 - Virginia Tech Massacre
April 18, 1906 - San Francisco Earthquake
April 19, 1995 - Oklahoma City Bombings
April 20, 1999 - Columbine Shootings

And sadly, on this week the lists just keeps getting longer.
April 15, 2013 - Boston Marathon Explosions
April 17, 2013 - West Fertilizer Explosion

  
 And for me, personally, this week in history has also painful.
On April 14, 2007, my dearest friend Morgan was in a boating accident.
On April 15th, I was told of her condition, and I flew to her bedside at a trauma hospital in Phoenix, Arizona.
I stayed with her two days, and returned home doubtful, but hopeful, for her survival.
Sadly, after a very emotional week, on Friday, April 20th, she was taken off life support and passed away thirty minutes later.


God is Good. And he is gracious. This same week, in 2007, another of my closest friends would have her second baby. And in my grief, they invited me to spend a lot of time with them as they eagerly anticipated her arrival. A sweet girl who's 6th year of life is celebrated this week. The third week of April to me is also about new life and new beginnings, amidst sadness, hardness, and goodbyes. God allowed me to feel quite a range of emotions in April of 2007.



That week in April reminded me that God is real. That he is GOOD. That he provides. That he gives and takes away.



It is in those difficult trials, those days where you don't know how you will even get through it, how you will wake up in the morning and do it all over again, that God reminds you that he provides you with exactly enough mercy to get through each day. Enough for each moment.



Like the manna in the wilderness, there was only enough for that day. And the days you need that extra manna, there it will be. When the Israelites went to bed each night, they could not store up for the morning. They had to trust God that he would provide each new day.



And I will tell you, living through those first days, weeks, months, and year of a tragedy, that was so very true in my life.

That first week, God provided abundance grace and mercy, holding that sweet baby for the first time, seeing joy in my friends' lives, understanding that God truly is in control was a perfect provision. It was the much needed extra manna for those hard days. That first year he provided shoulders to cry on, friends to be with, and more importantly the comfort of His love, sovereignty, and redemption.


God has taught me a lot in these 6 years. Losing Morgan was one of those "Ebenezer" experiences where everything is different, a time I can look back on and be reminded of God's faithfulness in seeing me through the hard times and grief.

He is the provider of the manna in the wilderness. He knows our needs. He meets us in them.

I know he wastes nothing, and that he uses our sorrows and heartaches to comfort others as he has comforts us. I know he is good.
Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our affliction, so that we may be able to comfort those who are in any affliction, with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God. 2 Cor. 1:3-4


Pictures taken 3.22.13 at the Morgan Meredith Rohde Memorial Bench at the Torrey Pines Glider Port in La Jolla, CA.



9 comments:

  1. beautiful post.
    i love your heart so much.
    you're a peach, kcuppa.

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  2. Amazing post! Sending prayers.

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  3. beautiful. praying for you today, sweetie girl. love you!

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  4. Wow, I had no idea that all these tragedies occurred during this week in history. So sorry to hear of your friend... thank you for sharing a bit of her story. I love that there is a special notebook for her.

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  5. kim. this is so good. it made me tear up.
    good reminders for this week.
    and life in general.

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  6. Has that box been there since 2007? And it's stayed in that good of condition? I think that's so beautiful, and such an amazing tribute to your friend and the life she had.

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  7. Love you.
    I really am so sorry for your loss.

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  8. i am a dates person (bad at math, but remember dates). i also remember that waco, texas tragedy occurred on April 19th... yes, so much sadness in this week. But God. I pray for His glory, and that He make Himself known.

    and for you, i delight in how you remember and cherish your friend. i delight in how you remember and cherish your LORD, who is in the details, and who provides and is tangible in the "giving and taking away."

    last November marked 20 yrs since i lost my best friend. i still miss her. miss who she would have been in my life today. the missing reminds me that this is not my Home... He is.

    and finally, this tender post just makes me love you, kim, more. The Spirit in you is so beautiful.

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  9. I love how you continue to love and cherish Morgan, Kim. That bench, the box of items... it's a beautiful way to honor someone who loved so deeply, and was loved deeply in return.
    love you kim.

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